My Moose

Okay. So last week I had this really bizarre dream.

We were living over at Mom's. It was late at night. Jules and Samuel must have been in bed, because they were no where to be found. Abby was only a year old and I was carrying her on my hip. Everyone else was already in bed except for me, Jason and Abby. Jason turns on the television. They are showing clips of various interviews with The Judds - Naomi, Wynonna and Ashley. Some clips show all three of them, some with just the sisters and then finally just interviews of Ashley Judd alone.

I ask Jason why are they showing this? He says he doesn't know, maybe she has a movie coming out. "My God, she's not dead is she?", I ask. Just then, Katie Couric appears (who's now doing the nightly news) and says, "Ashley Judd - missing. She was last seen yesterday at.......". Apparently she had a stalker and now it was feared that he had abducted her. I freak out. I run to Mom's room ( which is now Lee's room - like before the piece was built on the house) with Abby still propped on my hip. I tell her about Ashley Judd. Mom gets very upset too. I start praying for her to be strong and find some way to escape the crazed man that has kidnapped her. All of a sudden, an enormous shooting star streaks across the sky. I say to Mom that maybe this was a good sign that Ashley will be ok.

Now I am in the kitchen. It is 2 o'clock in the morning. There is a banging on the door. Without thinking I yell "Come in!" followed by an immediate "Oh crap!". Mom scolds that I just invited God knows who into the house in the middle of the night. Ironically, I hear male voices outside saying "She just sung out "Come in!" to us at 2 o'clock in the morning!". Three men enter the house. They are Vance, Arthur and Uncle Terry. They want Jason to drive them somewhere. Vance notices a for sale poster of our trailer on the kitchen table. He starts explaining why he didn't buy it, how he would of, but blah, blah, blah.... Maybe we sold it? This would explain why we're living at Mom's.

Then I am alone in the kitchen again. Jason must be gone taking the boys somewhere. I decide I will lock up the house before going to bed. I don't want anymore surprise visitors. I go to the door, open it and peek outside. It is a clear night with a bright moon. The deck is not there, but rather the old black and white step from years ago. There is a noise at the front corner of the house. I see a dark shadow. I yell "Hey!", hoping to startle the person hiding there. But it's not a person. It's a large moose. It looks at me for a second and then gallops across the yard and out the upper driveway.

And then I wake up.

Bizarre.

Monday night I was sitting on the couch. I had just finished watching Everwood. Sad. Anyway, it was shortly after nine. The curtains were open, and it was just coming on dusk. Jules and Samuel are in bed, Abby is asleep on the couch beside me and Jason is on the computer. I'm just sitting there reflecting, which for some reason Everwood always causes me to do, when suddenly a moose walks into my line of vision! It's just standing there on my front lawn. I stare at it for what seems like minutes, in shock of it's presence and in awe of it's majestic beauty. Then I finally find my voice and whisper for Jason to come here.

Why?

Just come here!

But why?

Ugh! Moose!

What?

It starts to walk and then trot across my lawn. Jason runs to get the camcorder, but it's too late. It crosses the road at the upper corner of my yard and disappears in the woods.

I called Mom to tell her to look out her window to see if she could see it. She immediately gasps and says "Your dream!". I had told her about it last week and had completely forgotten about it. I don't know if the two are related at all. I doubt I'm pschyic. But in all of the six years that we've lived here, we have never had the pleasure of seeing a moose in our yard. One deer. The odd skunk or coyote. And lord knows bears have made their presence known. But moose? This was a first.

I don't know what it was. Maybe the mood I was in, or just being that close to a wild creature? But I felt like the moose came for me. Crazy I know. But it was like in a movie. Something magical about it. A connection.

Mom says I should start dreaming of images or things that I want to happen. I don't know if that will actually work or not.

All I can say is that if I do have some sort of power, then Ashley Judd better watch her back!

Our Song

Awhile ago Kellie blogged about the past and made me think of this....

Jason and I got together at a very young age, fifteen to be exact. Although we first "went out" back in March, we say that we officially became a couple on April 14th, 1990. That's right, do the math....over 16 years ago! Pretty amazing, if I do say so myself.

After his parents won a little pot in the lottery, Jason was awarded the family k-car, a little burgundy box to call his own. Even though it wasn't exactly a hot-rod, it was still much better than the little shit-brown escort that had left us stranded on numerous occasions. Jason always kept it clean and "pimped" it out(if that was even possible) with personal touches, like a novelty neon signal light that set in the back window, which would flash big right or left arrows accordingly. Jason and I spent many, many hours in that car, like most teenagers who have no place to call their own.

Years earlier, Jason's older brother Chris had bought a car which contained some old cassette tapes. Jason kept these tapes and sure enough they eventually found their way into the old k-car. One of them was a mixed tape that someone else had made. On this tape was a love song that shortly became "our song". The problem was that we had no idea what this song was called or who was singing it. I wrote the words down and we played the song for all of our friends and family but no one knew what this song was. We used to call it "A Case Like This". We made a copy of the tape, so we would always have this song - our song.

It wasn't until a couple of years ago when we purchased our own computer that the thought hit me to google the lyrics. And there it was, we finally knew that our song was................................... Somebody by Depeche Mode. Who would have thought that - depeche mode? Too funny. All this time we had no idea. We would have had it played at our wedding, had we known what song to request. It's so ridiculous now to think that we never thought to google the song before. But we were just so used to not knowing. Now looking back, I think that's what made the song so special to us, not just the lyrics but the fact that no one else seemed to have ever heard it before. I believe it was quite the hit song for Depeche Mode back in the day, but I had never heard the song before or since. Once I knew the title of the song, I immediately downloaded it and now have it on my computer to listen to whenever we want, much better quality than that old cassette tape(which we still own).

For those of you who might be like we were, and have never heard of this song, here are the lyrics :

Somebody - Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share

Share the rest of my life

Share my innermost thoughts

Know my intimate details

Someone who'll stand by my side

And give me support

And in return

She'll get my support

She will listen to me

When I want to speak

About the world we live in

And life in general

Though my views may be wrong

They may even be perverted

She'll hear me out

And won't easily be converted

To my way of thinking

In fact she'll often disagree

But at the end of it all

She will understand me

I want somebody who cares

For me passionately

With every thought and

With every breath

Someone who'll help me see things

In a different light

All the things I detest

I will almost like

I don't want to be tied

To anyone's strings

I'm carefully trying to steer clear of those things

But when I'm asleep

I want somebody

Who will put their arms around me

And kiss me tenderly

Though things like this

Make me sick

In a case like this

I'll get away with it