I'm Scared

Ok. If you go to www.phobia-fear-release.com and click on the Phobia Top Ten button in the index, you will see that it lists the top 10 phobias. And I just realized that I either currently have or have experienced in the past, literally ALL of them.

I am severely f*#ked up! It's not an act people.

I Got The Power!!

And God said "Let there be light... and there was".

We have power! Last night we got to flick the switch for the first time and see our house all lit up. Well, actually it was only the back half lit up...but still....it was pretty awesome! The electrician just has to come now and connect the front half to the back half, or something like that. Anyway, I got to see my kitchen, bathroom and Samuel's room lit up at night. How cool was it to stand outside at night and see Jason and the kids standing in our kitchen? Pretty dam cool, I'll tell ya.

Also they added on the roof for our porch and shingled the whole thing. Now we are finally starting to get a feel for what it will look like when it is all completed. I took my camera over last night to get a pic, but was so excited about power that I forgot, until it was too dark to get a good shot. Next time.

I feel like there is so much to talk about but I don't have time to elaborate on anything. Taking all the kids to town today to go the doctor and get groceries, and I have SO much to do before I can leave. (shower, bath Abby, laundry, make grocery list, email nurse, etc...)

Here is a quick list of tidbits:

• Received an invitation in the mail for a Halloween Party @ Crystal Palace this Sunday. It is for children with diabetes and their families.
• Also got link to best diabetic website ever!
• Ordered Christmas presents for the kids. Jules is getting a wicked doll house. I'm more excited than her!
• Got invited to a Parent Support Group meeting in Douglastown.
• Bought ALL the paint for my house!
• Bought curtain rods, bath mat, kids Halloween costumes, etc..
• Experiencing wicked stomach spasms on and off. WTF?
• Meeting with nurse on Monday to discuss pump for Jules.
• Had horrible day in town with kids on Thursday(**must make myself elaborate later**) which ended with us buying our new bed and a new bedroom set!
• Had mental breakdown on weekend after dropping Samuel off to spend the night

And, that's all the time we have for today.

Who Am I?

Yet another thing that proves, you can't believe everything you read on the internet! How they can go from a pic of me(first thing in the morning, no less!) to these beauties, I'll never understand.

Mother of the year

Ok. So today I did the unspeakable......I dropped my kids off at school wearing, you guessed it, my pajamas. That's right. I've become that Mom. Gone are the dreams I had of being the modern Mom, or the cool Mom or at least the pretty Mom. Nope. I'm the Mom who drops you off in the morning (and actually gets out of the car!) while wearing her pj's. What's next? Hair rollers? Slippers?

And this morning, in another proud parent moment, I realized that in the craze of newly diagnosed diabetes and getting a new house, that I completely forgot about Halloween! Or more importantly, the fact that my kids will want to wear a costume. So this morning, I asked them what they wanted to be this year. Abby, luckily, is just going to wear Jules' Snow White costume from last year. Jules, however, has informed me that she wants to be princess Leia. And Samuel, of course, thinks it would be appropiate if he went as Luke Skywalker - you know, to go with the whole fraternal twin thing. Ugh!

For the last, I'd say, 3 years I have been trying to convince Jules to go as Leia. And every year she would change her mind come September and opt to be a princess. But this year, of all years, she decides to do it. I mean what are the chances of myself finding a Princess Leia or Luke Skywalker costume this late in the game? Not that I could afford them anyway. So now I must brainstorm on how to create one on my own. I'm going to have to hit the second-hand stores. Surely this route will be cheaper, right?

Obviously we'll be opting to go with the white clad Leia from the original Star Wars and not the slave girl bikini from Return of the Jedi. I mean, she is only six. I'm not sure how to do the hair thingy. I'm thinking ear muffs with twisted brown yarn attached somehow? If I could get some kind of over sized shirt to use for Luke, that would be great. Samuel of course, already has his light saber, so hopefully he will come along quite easily. Jules is going to be much harder to please.



Any Star Wars fans out there have any advice?

A Teaser

This is it

Tomorrow, sometime between 12pm and 1pm, our new house will arrive at it's final destination.

I can't quite believe it. It doesn't seem real.

I literally dreamt of this day my whole life. As a girl I always remember loving houses, noticing little details that I probably shouldn't have for my age. I've spent countless hours (years) decorating every room in my head. Of course, my taste has changed over the years. I would have never built this house ten years ago, or even five years ago.

After what happened this summer, with Jules and Abby getting diagnosed, I thought I would never get excited about houses again. I couldn't. I felt like that part of me, who took such pleasure in colors, fabric, paint, furniture - had died. It wasn't that I thought I shouldn't think about such things anymore, it was that I really couldn't care less. Details like that didn't matter anymore. Nothing did. Of course, like most things, it has gotten better with time. We are slowly finding ourselves again.

So this Sunday, I found myself all alone in town shopping. A rarity, to say the least. Jason was working and Mom had offered to keep the kids. I was shopping for groceries and a few things for the house. Curtains mainly. I enjoyed this profusely, finding the perfect match to compliment my bedroom decor. My cell phone rings and it is Jason. "Why don't you go and get that chair", he says. I had seen one in the sales flyer the day before. It is a tub chair, just like I had always wanted. It is even a chocolate brown color, which will match my living room. "Yeah right", I say. I think he is teasing me like he has a tendency to do. But he is serious. I cannot say how excited I was! I believe I made quite the spectacle of myself, sitting in it, testing it out, there in the aisle of Wal-Mart. It is just soo cute. I was happy, obviously to be buying this piece of furniture, but even more, I was happy that it made me happy. That I could feel such pure joy again over such a tiny detail.

We all know that such things - material possessions - don't really matter in life. But sometimes, on a sunny Sunday afternoon, they can still bring you joy.

Have you ever.....(yep. another meme)

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game (and survived the crush afterwards)
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
09. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

51 things...how about you?